Hi Community,
As the title suggests, I feel like I am craving insane amounts of dopamine and looking for some sort of a human connection.
A bit of context, I have never lived by myself for most of my life: My school days were spent in hostel, further during my bacholers days I was always surrounded by my friends and we used to go out almost all days of the week. The first time I ever sort of lived by myself was during my first job, during which I started observing similar kind of feeling (I wasn’t diagnosed then) and to subside this feeling I used to smoke weed, it made me calm.
Fast forward to now, I have realised weed is a bad cope up mechanism (don’t smoke weed now) but I am going insane and unable to function at my best. I kind of get hyperfixated on my dating app matches, or go insane if my friends don’t pick up my call etc.
I am trying to distract myself with things I like such as movies, or finding new novelty, trying to meditate etc. I do weekly therapy as well. But despite all the efforts, I feel like I am going insane and thus reaching out to the community for any help.
Edit: I take Ritalin LA - 30mg, used to take SSRI (Lexapro) and stopped it few days back as I feel very dud when I take those.
Edit 2: Added information about smoking weed: I dont smoke weed now.
Thanks in advance.
Did you taper off the Lexapro? If not that could explain some of what you are feeling now.
What happened with Lexapro is, firstly my gut got worse, second (my theory) I feel like stimulants make me active but Lexapro makes me go insanely lazy: a lot of times, I would be insanely hungry but I wouldn’t want to eat or walk till hallway to put food in my mouth and this is what I mean by it made me feel dud.