https://xcancel.com/cumilq/status/1786165200510706141?lang=en

hi. posting this because a lot of people are questioning me for posting the loli god requiem video after i, admittedly, did attack a creator for liking that kind of stuff 2 years ago.

when i first started vtubing, i did not understand the culture in the slightest. i was mostly a cringe stan twitter user. so, coming into vtubing and anime culture, someone who had zero clue as to what anything was, i didn’t understand anything and when i saw loli stuff i immediately assumed it was pedo shit.

(keep this part in mind as you’re reading the rest. when i first started streaming, i had a bigger content creator convince me that drama = content so i should “farm that shit”)

so, me, still slowly coming out my woke stan twitter phase and entering the vtubing phase, i saw what a bunch of people were posting about a streamer on twitter and i immediately jumped the hate bandwagon because i wanted to take my friend’s advice … which lead me to call out the girl LIVE on MY stream where her name had NO business being there.

looking back at it, i wasn’t even trying to criticize. i was just straight up bullying her and trying to de-platform her when i didn’t even know who she truly is as a person. we have so many mutual friends in common and any time her name was brought up in idle chit chat, i started feeling really bad. because everyone had said nothing but nice things about her. and it became more clear and clear to me that she didn’t deserve that.

as for apologizing to her, ive reached to a mutual friend of ours back in february (because her dms are closed) in attempt to send my apology to her. said friend told me that she wasn’t answering dms because it was clear she was going through something at the time.

after i started gaining experience in streaming over the year, ive learned so many things. you’d actually have to be mentally inept to do what i did over a year ago. it’s just rude, unnecessary, and disrespectful. i know that now.

and if somehow this message gets to you, i am very sorry for what i did. i didn’t know you and yet i attacked you without even educating myself with who you truly are. my behavior was unacceptable. i will continue to learn how to be a better person. side note, i hope u feel better with what ur dealing with atm. it sounds rough, so pls take all the time u need to heal. u have so many people who love and appreciate u that will be waiting for u with open arms.

and sorry to those who i upset with my previous post. as i’ve delved deeper into the world of vtubing, i’ve gained a better understanding of anime culture. i’ve come to understand that characters with youthful appearances are common across media forms. i’ve come to appreciate their innocence without any negative implications. ive pretty much adopted an entirely new outlook on this subject.

in conclusion, not the same person who i was two years ago. i hate her too. i hope u can give present me a chance. if not, that’s okay too. have nice day.