It’s clearly in retaliation to shut me up about abuse at the facility. It makes zero sense, even the process server thought it was ridiculous.

But I have no money, I couldn’t find a lawyer. So now my life is over basically. I’m barely employable as it is. I have thousands in credit card debt, I have tens of thousands in student loans, and I work a part time job and do gig work.

There is no therapy. There is no lawyer. DO NOT FUCKING SAY “just check a low income program in your area!” THEY DONT FUCKING EXIST. I live in a red state which exists to chew people up like me.

I have zero family support. I have zero friends. I have zero help.

The second I can’t pay rent I’m walking into traffic.

At no point in my life has there been help. I called a crisis line last year, was assaulted and lost my job because they forget to give me paperwork after I got out.

“Help” seems to be platitudes. Help seems to pretend that there is something on the other side, when across my life that “it gets better” hope gets fucking yoinked from me like Lucy with the football.

Why the fuck is saying “no” such a bad thing? My family didn’t care when I got diddled, why would they care if I was in the ground?

    • FATALRPG@sh.itjust.worksOPEnglish
      111·
      24 days ago

      I have 15k in credit card debt. I have 60k in student loans which will start coming out next month and will destroy the limited budget I have. Idk if a lawyer can even help at this point.

      I’ve worked hard all of my life. I worked full time in college. I did sex work which I have nightmares about. All I’ve ever wanted is to be able to work a full time job and have enough to live, and it’s just not an option. I’m a tranny in the south, I have no friends, and I might as well be a cockroach for the love and support I’ve gotten my entire life.

      • wizardbeard@lemmy.dbzer0.comEnglish
        12·
        24 days ago

        If your student loan is federally backed, they have “income based repayment plans” which can go as low as full deferment, $0 a month. Interest still builds, but it’s better than starving.

        • FATALRPG@sh.itjust.worksOPEnglish
          4·
          24 days ago

          It’s wonderful isn’t it? My ex husband said we’d split the 90k in our bank account half way, even had it in fucking text, but the divorce lawyer didn’t want to do shit. “Oh he stopped paying the insurance before you managed to get him to file? Looks like he doesn’t have to pay insurance then!” He kicked me out, emptied my bank account, maxed out my credit cards and everyone’s like “sorry dumbass, you shouldn’t have had any faith in the justice system.”