met a different guy the day after, and 2 days later met another different guy.

I have ADHD. Testing the pills on a higher dosage rn which makes me insane (real). Never allowed myself to think sexual thoughts in public as a teenager in fear of consequences. Never dated, never had experience with a relationship.

I read a lot of resources online and I overthink a lot. Especially with my sexuality. The meds made it easier. The encouragement of my friends also made it easier.

So I downloaded Grindr. I got messaged - the usual. The meds does a funny thing of increasing my libido, makes me a bit more impulsive, gives me more energy and supercharges my heart where it beats fast til no end and so I continued chatting. Which lead to plans being made.

Might even meet another guy later today.

I dont know if im just acting out (other aspects of my life has been really stressful and overwhelming) but I just opened the flood gates and there’s no way to close em back. So many questions about aspects of my sexuality being answered practically instantly.

Planning to take an STI test at a local clinic to establish my baselines in a few days. No doubt the frequency will tone down with time. Should I even worry? Because right now, I love it.

  • Infamousblt [any]@hexbear.netEnglish
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    2 months ago

    Yes you should absolutely worry. You should test regularly and you should ask for proof that any new partner is testing. Even the little baby STIs that aren’t any big deal suck. Herpes gives you a big pus rash for weeks and can’t be cured. Gonorrhoea is treated by a big nasty shot applied directly to your ass. And you definitely want to avoid getting more long term problems like hpv, hepatitis, or hiv.

    If you’re doing the sex you must absolutely test between new partners and ask for proof that new partners are testing. Make them show you their results. You show them yours.

    This will mean you’re doing less sex. It also means you’re protecting not only yourself but all current and future partners as well.

    Also if you’re a penis haver doing mostly sex with other penis havers get on prep. Also probably use protection it’s good for your health.

    Take your sexual health seriously it’s worth it in the long run. I know I’m just a random internet stranger but it’s serious stuff so please please please take care of yourself and others

  • Jabril [none/use name]@hexbear.netEnglish
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    2 months ago

    Just use protection and take prep.

    Ideally get proof of recent STI checks from whoever you are playing with, and don’t be afraid to ask how recently people have been tested and what their recent history is like. It feels awkward at first but is one of the most important steps towards claiming your sexuality in a healthy way. If someone else gets turned off by that, it is the only red flag you need to find someone else.

    Enjoy yourself but trust your gut, some people are legit weird, even if they are hot, and better to find someone else than put yourself in an unsafe situation.

    Also be careful with drugs, particularly meth, coke, opioids and benzos. A fun hook up could offer you something that ruins your life. You are describing yourself in a way that makes it sound like uppers could injure your heart and downers could be extra addictive.

    But yeah have fun, if you want the best of both worlds maybe you’ll find a few people you can build trust with to become regular things and rely less on total strangers. That is fun and exciting too but just opens up way more potential for very bad outcomes.

  • Thallo [she/her, they/them]@hexbear.netEnglish
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    2 months ago

    met a different guy the day after, and 2 days later met another different guy.

    I have ADHD

    Such a banger way to start a post. Could’ve just stopped there tbh 10/10