Hi, I’m Amy.
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I live in Japan. Talk to me about Haskell, Scheme, and Linux.
日本語も通じます。
Eugh, that sucks bad. Sounds like DIY is your best choice for now.
Where I live (Japan) many providers also try to mess you around if you try to do things by the book, but you can shortcut a lot of hassle if you’re already on medication, however you came by it.
Take care <3
carabiners
TIL! BRB, off to the hardware store…
Yeah, good for you! It’s nice to be noticed. Plus eyeliner rocks.
Have fun exploring!
There have been a few other moments where I realized how much better I feel, like when my genitals are exposed to nurses or medical workers
This is really interesting! Electrolysis has been feeling like psychological (not to mention physical!) torture to have someone prodding around down there (at least the technician is a woman). Now that you mention it I can absolutely imagine being more relaxed if things were different. Another thing to look forward to :3
Oh wow, thanks for the detailed writeup and I hope the separation sorts itself out.
Err… I think I get what you mean but I feel this could be misinterpreted?
You make a very good point. I’m convinced <3
Love that smile! And what a fabulous top <3
Some things I found effective:
Oh yes, that’s a very good point. “Size” is a concept you should forget :3 I’m an M in one brand and 3L in another. (Particularly as a transfem my proportions are quite far off average)
Buy a little at a time, and nothing remotely expensive, especially if you plan on losing weight. Amazon is your friend here.
Look on pinterest and in real life for women wearing things you like. Then copy them! It’s that easy, but it takes a while to find your own style. You’ll have plenty of time as your body changes to explore.
Have fun!
I’ve been losing weight and it just made them more obvious :3 You’re probably OK.
Which reminds me: I got a “proper” bra at last. Compared with a sports bra where they tend to leak out the sides a bit, actual cups bring everything forward and make my chest look huge (still barely a US A-cup).
I’m flattered that you felt my ramblings were worth ruminating on <3
In case anyone’s interested my explanation is below.
This all came from an idle thought I had that transitioning is kind of like if I always dreamed I had magic powers, and then one day it turned out I actually did! Like, a totally impossible dream has actually come true. I am euphoric and very thankful that I get to do this. Unfortunately, a certain author (who shall not be named) has made wizard analogies problematic.
You are correct that this is a loose analogy. Being an “astronaut” is standing in both for the opposite sex in general, and being trans in particular (I’ll speak in fem terms from now on). Growing up I always fantasized about being a (cis) woman, but I was aware that that was impossible. I’d also heard about trans people, and there was a pretty clear separation between “[cis] women” and “trans women” in my mind. Because I was “obviously” not a trans woman, the latter didn’t hold much relevance to me, and my impossible daydreams were just that. (Transitioning always seemed to me like something I’d definitely want to do “if I was trans”, but I don’t think I honestly thought of trans women as “real” women).
There’s also some psychology at play here, as you say. ContraPoints talks about it in her video on Envy, but as I learned more and more about trans people, I started to get very jealous: this was clearly a realistic goal for someone like me, if only I was trans. It was one small step (sorry) from there to my egg cracking.
So while in reality my fantasy morphed from “what if I was born a woman” to “what if I transitioned”, that’s a distinction that perhaps doesn’t need to be made if one is pitching the analogy to be at least partially understandable by a non-trans person. And there’s a bit of irony too to blur the distinction between women in general and trans women in particular, because of course trans women are women 😉
TL;DR: it’s deliberately vague.
*snort*
OK, I might have to steal that.
Nice one! Here’s to a smooth recovery.
I found a translation of the third one: My Future Self Is Persuading Me To Become a Woman
Well the first three stories (in Japanese) are here:
I guess I can have a go at translating when I get a spare moment (assuming nobody else does).
Oh yeah, that slow slide over the first few weeks / months from “I don’t mind my body” to “I am not OK with this at all” as you realize just how much you’ve been repressing all this time. I originally thought I wouldn’t bother with bottom surgery, but now it can’t happen soon enough.
OTOH, taking care of the things under my control that were bothering me (hair, posture, clothes, weight, voice etc) really helped me get over the nagging feeling that I wasn’t serious about transitioning. That way everything becomes a positive, and self-care becomes feeling good about myself for once.
Yummy <3