oops, forgot to include the brain massager and the one thats supposed to cause panic attacks or something idk it makes me feel normal because im so dArK aNd TwIsTeD iNsIdE

I am going to shamelessly promote myNoise.net, which is a superFuckinCool website with a gazillion different noise machines and a lot of different options. It feels like a relic of the old internet, lots of personality and some very clean, modern design. The guy who runs it makes these soundscapes for a living, just going around recording sounds and turning them into this.

Its got normal stuff like white noise, rain, waves on a beach, and babble (plus restaurant sounds, which can be turned on or off). Theres some wierd ones like the inside of a WW2-era bomber, a brain massager, and like fifty automatic music generators like this one called Shroom with a View. Some of my favorites are behind the paywall ($10 donation for lifetime access, just saying) so I can’t share them but theres a haunted house, a construction site, an alchemy lab, and a S.T.A.L.K.E.R. themed one.

Also there’s a mobile app but I dont really use it and cant say much about it other than donating to one doesn’t give you full access on the other.

Do the volunteers also get gear discounts the way contractors and employees do? My [REDACTED] who works for [REDACTED] at [REDACTED] National Park gets like 60% off boots at this one place.

Came here to say this. The internet has been instrumental in helping many people to understand their own queerness and this kind of access restriction is going to hurt a lot of people.

The northrop one was a space rocket lauch. It was kinda cool to watch until it became apparent that it was promoting slaughtertech. The border patrol thing was something with an ambiguously hispanic looking man with a stalwart expression riding a horse in the desert. The sound was off so I cant comment on that part. Between them was a rather violent looking ad for the game fortnite, it all felt very facistic and grim.

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Did you see the ones for Northrop Grumman and the border patrol? The burger reich is real

Hi, I don’t want to cause a fight but “get injections and go straight to monotherapy” is not good advice to give to someone looking for a place to start.

There are a variety of options when it comes to feminizing HRT and the reality is that it comes down to preference and one’s ability to regularly administer dosages. Injections can be intimidating, uncomfortable, and deliver less consistent levels than pills would, pills don’t require sharps and are generally more available. There is this mystique around injections, they’re sexy in a way but they’re not meaningfully more effective in delivering results than other methods and may be worse in some ways. Spironolactone is… fine? Like really its fine, as long as you don’t have any preexisting kidney or liver conditions its fine. You’re definitely going to pee more often and some people report “brain fog” but your mileage will vary on that. To me, starting spiro felt like waking up for the first time in decades. The other thing about spiro is that it works in a very wonky way so blood testosterone levels aren’t a great indication of how well its working.

That being said, there are other antiandrogens out there, and its your right as a person to try things out and see what works best for you. Transfeminine science has a very good introduction to feminizing HRT and I highly recommend reading it as well as the rest of the website. Those girls do good work. There is also a fun simulator that plots out a rough estimate of estrogen levels with different medications. Regarding actually getting HRT, independent journalist Erin Reed maintains a map of informed consent clinics that you may find useful if you haven’t found a place for that yet. Planned Parenthood clinics offer gender affirming care and also have a sliding scale for how much they’ll charge you.

Frankly, its going to take time to get comfortable presenting as oneself. There’s a lot said about the “embracing the new” aspect of transitioning and the “discarding the old” part gets talked about much less, and the absence of the old can be much more uncomfortable than the presence of the new. I really hope that made sense. I am very tired. Be patient with yourself and hold faith in what the future has in store for you. The process of bodily feminization is glacial, agonizingly so, and it comes in spurts too. I promise that one day you’ll look in the mirror, and as though by magic you’ll see her there for the first time. The details like makeup and mannerisms and clothes and hair and all that will come to you eventually, it takes a little effort, and quite a bit of trial and error. You’d be surprised to find just how many people are willing to help a trans woman get oriented in these matters.

I have no idea where to put this part, so I’m putting it here. You should read this comment. The book Inanna, Lady of Largest Heart is wonderful and you owe it to yourself to go read it, or at least chapter nine, the linked comment mentions where to find it but if you want, DM me and I’ll email it to you lmao. It is an incredibly powerful thing to see oneself in the words of a woman who lived five thousand years before you were even born.

In case no one has said this already, I’m so fucking proud of you. Yeah sure we’re strangers but from what you’ve said here I can tell that you are already a very, very strong woman*. Thank you for finding it in you to persist and find this courage.

(If “woman” is not how you label your gender identity I deeply apologize and wish to correct myself.)

COunt me in coach! ill take the week of the 15th -21st of December!

i wamna do a thread, sign me up for a thread yes

up with trans

Wtf theyre like the dessert of muffins, its my favorite part. Cupcake wrappers suck though, those are dry as fuck

“would be”

Ummm, how about “are”? That color is ssooooooo cute!!! And its really clean too! I still get lacquer all over my fingers every time, you did great!!!

Uncanny… the cuomo brother that escaped his fate

hold on, ive been using this to express chagrin for years, are you telling me this is a fucking smile?

Good, very good.

Got any good jokes?

Maybe it started out as a slot machine review channel and he pivoted to being a total peice of shit once that wasn’t working out.

I made swatches for my nail polish collection and I really wish I was brave/stupid enough to post the pictures here.