Hello everyone~ The megathread is very eepy this week so I am being very quiet and not posting a whole essay as that might disturb their rest. The megathread does a lot of work for us after all, so they deserve to rest a little. Our regularly scheduled effortposts will continue next week.

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  • gaystyleJoker [she/her]@hexbear.netMEnglish
    5·
    5 days ago

    hello gang, once again here to ask if anyone wants to sign up to make the mega and also claim my spot at the top of the comment pile

    Seryph (8/11 - 8/17)
Shaleesh (8/18 - 8/24)
GayTuckerCarlson* (8/25 - 8/31)
Eco* (9/1 - 9/7)
nemmybun (9/8 - 9/14)
Disaster_of_Passion* (9/15 - 9/21)
Carcharodonna* (9/22 - 9/28)
sodium_nitride* (9/29 - 10/5)
peanutbuttercupola* (10/6 - 10/12)
oscardejarjayes* (10/13 - 10/19)

Wmill (10/27 - 11/2)

peanutbuttercupola* (12/29 - 1/4)

    ​ * after name denotes someone who has posted before and will be skipped by first-time posters

  • semioticbreakdown [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
    12·
    6 hours ago

    I’m going to wear a skirt tomorrow, i’m going to do it. I’m gonna do it. I’m going to wear one and go into town and look at books. I’m going to browse at the thrift store and buy nothing. I’m going to wile away the day existing in the real world and not from behind the screen.

  • TerminalEncounter [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
    9·
    6 hours ago
    mental health, some of its harsh from a caregiver

    Before me and my ex broke up, for 3 years they had some kind of constellation of depression, fatigue, pain, a lot of stuff. I was happy to step in cause I thought love and patience was enough.

    I do remember towards the end, starting to feel incredibly depressed and resentful that I didnt also have a Terminal in our relationship. I still had to go to school and work and change the cats litter on both of our days and cook and clean. But I didnt, I had my ex.

    The frustrating part was watching them NOT take steps towards anything. Not trying to get a job, not trying to get welfare, not attending therapy, not going to health appointments - even when I set them up, unless I drove there and from the sounds of it later they never talked much at any of them so I started getting them to write down what was happening day to day (feeling itchy for the 3rd day in a row, emesis x2 today, slept 14 hours, needed hot bath for nausea, etc). I ran into their family at work recently and by the sounds of it, theyre much better.

    Part of me is happy theyre FINALLY better and working and taking care of themslef. The other is bitter and mad, why wasn’t our relationship good enough to make that effort? I had been a shitty boyfriend sometimes and a much less shitty girlfriend but I thought I was worth taking the effort to, like, eat meals and go to therapy and work at a job. Im still paying consumer debt I took out to support us…

  • Disaster_of_Passion [kit/kit's, she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
    8·
    9 hours ago

    been able to get back into cooking a little bit this past week. I used to cook a lot and really loved it, loved expressing myself and being creative through food, but then [THE HORRORS] and for so long I just didn’t have the energy or the focus.

    maybe it’s silly, but it feels just… really really nice. almost empowering. like I’m reclaiming a part of my life that I used to love and is actually good for me.

  • sodium_nitride [she/her, any]@hexbear.netEnglish
    11·
    14 hours ago

    Do I hate my parents because being with them makes me feel like a child and I hate the feeling of being a child and find it utterly repulsive? Am I terrified of going through another puberty even when my first one was so horrid? Can Sigmund Freud explain what I am feeling?

    Find out on the next episode of sodium nitride’s hormonal getaways!

    I gotta work on that show title.