No doom eggnog, i thought i would never come out, but coming out was the best thing i could ever do for my own health and wellbeing. Im finally living. Ive only been alive like this for 2 or 3 years. Its wonderful tbh. Yeah it sucks sometimes. I dont want to pretend it doesnt. But the joy is worth every ounce of pain and fear. I get to be a girl and go about my day as a girl. I get to be hot, i get to be pretty, i get to wear dresses and makeup, and most people who spend more than 30 seconds with me treat me as a woman. I mean, even the chudvibes guy at the corner store calls me baby and honey and girl, even when i show up unshaved unshowered in a hoodie. (I mean, his actions arent to be emulated, like, fuck you im not your baby or honey or girl but also thank you for seeing me as a woman (just ewwphoria things lol)).

Anyway all that to say, we can recognize the hard, the terrible, and painful aspects of this, but we cant lose sight of the absolute joy of existing. Like, just existing. Sometimes i cant see it or feel it but it shows up. It shows up. Its beautiful when it does and it makes all that pain worthwhile.